Dear Diary

Why I got this feeling today I don't know it was like distroying everything, ruining everything and just dying.am I that hollow that I can't even breath or do anything.am I that unhappy that I just cannot survive these days...I am hopeless always breaking something here n there...

If you are reading this then know this thing you are amazing and you have you to tell this to yourself everyday,don't let any toxic person affect you in your life,you had enough n now you can stop hurting and you can embrace yourself.you are beautiful for the eyes who wanna see it and you are so loving that anybody can be greatful to have you. So gal smile right now for yourself n for your happiness n I am sure you are very happy these days and you will be more than happy soon..you have such an amazing loving people around you they lift you so much that you just can't break down ever,you deserve all of it and I know you will survive everything..happy birthday girl.... From your  30 years old self

I am not afraid of anybody cuz I am afraid of myself I need to save myself from me..I am not good for myself. Even if it's not confirm to see another day let's still hope for our future plans to work...may be it will work out way.. Feels like I am always apologizing for feeling like I am out of my mind when I am doing just fine. And my exes will say that I am hard to deal with n I admit it...it's true A man acts to be strong and rude but is a coconut. War doesn't determine who's right..war only determines who's left... It's okay to be not okay and its okay to say you need help when you need it... I am a visitor not someone who stays how can I forget that 

*Solo trip *Start buying alot of makeup *Change your style completely or wardrobe makeover. *Trip with Shilpa *Trip with Reena *Trip with Mona *DIY my room *Buy Boots * Start wearing Heels again that's your confidence. * Be happy like alot/ Not allowed to cry

If someone loves you really,do anything but don't feel sorry for them at least. In the world full of logic and practicality I have no right to even grief for myself. I need to look happy always like nothing happened n everything is just perfect and you know what it's very difficult to be happy at times when I want to cry oceans. I am greatful to this life to God n to my parents but my life is not what a person should live Like..I not even know what my problem is but I just try to solve it anyway may be one day ill be able to solve that. I cried alot today and it just happened for no reason..today I have realized why people cry when they found a person for them,it's because finding a person who wants you equally in life is rare and that doesn't happen often..the moment they cry it is for not being alone anymore and getting a rare thing.. It hit me more when someone give me love  cuz I just can't believe it at all.

I am sitting in the  corner of my room wondering n staring at blank and a moment later everything just got blurred out n I realized tears in my eyes...why am I crying I thought so but it kept on coming out now it's amusing to me,I don't have a reason to cry nor I am depressed still it's like my heart is hurting... Let's not think don't think please stop thinking, my stupid mind I am talking to you,will you listen to me once,I am done with you so done. Why are you home to people don't be a home,nobody stays at home for long. Emptiness of my heart is always there it can never be filled by any means.