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Mood check Saturday

Fucked up mood I am not able to cry that's a new thing. Okay let's be honest how much time it takes to reply or check a message...like they say nobody is that busy that they can't reply once. I don't want to think but it's just pushing me to think. Why can't I be at ease atleast once in relationship... atleast once I wanna feel like smbdy actually care for me rather making me just wait like all the time I don't mind waiting but everytime everyday I am just waiting Bare minimum is that all people have to offer. Let's talk about it  Non negotiable terms Communication Understanding feelings Reassuring me until I believe it Take interest in eachother's life Intitate for meets  Don't disappear on eachother I know what this is...which is why it is hurting this much This is a pattern of ghosting isn't it. Say it on my face you don't wanna see me...you are not sure now...you have second thoughts about me...whatever we spoke shared all this time t...

I messed up

Thanks to my stupidity n anxiety I messed up my things with him I respect his feelings but now it all feels like I said things which made him feel b