happy Birthday kabir

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I thought I should write a letter for you as next month is your birthday, today is 17 July to be precise n you slept already hehe while I am writing this.i hope your days are going fine and nuthing worrying you these days...I don't know much about you but I do try to know as much as I can without being obvious...okay I don't stalk it's more like checking up on you from far...m already a far far away love...okay let's talk about your birthday may be I'll send this by 12 am so you still need to celebrate your birthday also it's kinda bad that we never get to celebrate together ever...will do that okayyy...when...don't knw as if now but we will...stop thinking okay you can try trusting me n you can take steps towards me...just know I love you enough that you can rely on me...still you need time then you can take but don't take years...n you can ask things from me if you want too...I will like it if you take interest...just saying not making you feel uncomfortable...don't worry I don't think about you all the time I keep myself busy so don't feel burdened...I am like that,now i sound stupid here...I don't give up before trying properly so I never gave up on us...if you don't contact I do if you don't ask I'll tell anyway...I think about you often these days again but again I keep it to me...people around me they all have their love with them but it's just me who feels weird when they ask me what am I doing like it's a trophy or smth that I don't have...I stop feeling about it at all...see I am writing things I should not...I think I don't wanna stop loving you even if it's been so long that we met...a part of me tells me to stop but i just hope that may be you will feel the same...I don't knw if you ever feel this way for me but I love you anyway.

I think I wrote alot

Bye

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